"The formalities of this and that~~Is that Kriss Kross ain't comin off wack"---Kris Kross

I am by no means a polished writer. I'll prolly get better as I continue in my journal, so just know this man. With a slight urge from one of my distant friends, I decided to do the diary. And I will be doing the diary and it will be doing me, for we are one. Ok no jk, but what I'm trying to say is that when it comes to writing my thoughts they are very heavily analization oriented, beginning with myself. Sometimes I get confessional---Ok all of the time. But you just don't understand the joys of being completely honest with one's self. Alas there are pains also, for it can hurt to admit that the only reason you say and do somethings is because you haven't got the audacity, courage<--wrong word, blind courage<--better word, to do otherwise. Ouch. Admit that to yourself, sometime.

"I am so brutally honest with myself that I get hurt sometimes. Maybe that's why I always commit to fix-er-upper relationships. But I trust myself so much, that I want to be like me when I grow up"---meekythegeek

......and the beat goes on......
Ok I love music too, so you will be obliged to hear about the inner complexities and meanings to music which goes thump, thud, wha-ha-wah, boom-bip. Start looking forward to that now.

Don't fret, this diary will not be a "emo"-styled confessional laced with sympathy-driven eulogies. I plan on having a good time, as you should too. You are my audience, my ears, to validate my existence and my ability to use words in a manner to communicate something that I am actually making up as we speak, ad hoc. Rock on.

Let's get to some critical self-analysis. Micah is the kind of person who has much much potential for good within him. And that is what it is, and may always remain to be---potential--unfortunately. Part of this potential is based in the fact that I am so chill, and so there is no natural inclination to do any sort of evil or bad or meanness. So I am just kind of open, it I rule out the the bad, as I strive to do, then viola; I'm a good guy. Yay. In the equation to being chill and open, is being persuaded, as I can be by the environment which surrounds me. My friend mentions diary, and me a ball of potential who looks to other poeple for inspiration, follows the lead. In my defense, I am mighty creative own my own, and you know what? I form all of my all-important morals own my own; I trust myself. But I am fascinated by people and look to them to find things within myself. On a note about how environment may sway a person like me, it becomes apparent to me that to a great extent people are a product of their environment. BUT it is up that person to create the proper environment. That's why my responsibility comes in. I must make the environment that will make me.

Another side note: it is interesting to me that 2pac, who shares the same b-day as me, raps about everything in a tense which isn't really past present or future, although it is closely related to the future. It is a tense of possibilities, but not yet, or ever really intended to be realized. Many of those possibilities were realized, but his rhymes existed in a sea of possibilities.

Side note 3: I am a believer. I am aware of all the possibilities in life. I can see the potential for much good. I believe in great things, and even things which can't be proven by human science--at least not yet, because they are spiritual I guess. it's like how in kids' miovies the grown-ups can never see the elves, angels, and magic taking place because they don't believe. I am a believer.

Peter Pan, right, you couldn't fly unless you believed (so I hear, never saw the flick). Well as soon as you don't belive that you can't do something per se, well at that point you can be sure that it won't happen. It's like duh.

AND THE FINAL MOST IMPORTANT POINT TO MY RAMBLINGS, (connected to believing): That's is what this life is ALL about, believing, or faith--period. Lesson numero uno. That is the skill which we are required to learn and harness while we are here, and the power of faith is what causes things to come to pass. Start believing.